Since the day I came into existence I believed in everything because I understood nothing. The years passed by in moments and I kept on believing. It was one fine morning when I witnessed the soft iridescent rays like pearls falling in my courtyard and filling my heart with an unbridled kind of joy and wonder...how soothing it was...it was the first time I tried to think and it seemed me that it is going to be like this always ...but as the moments flew, the softness was lost to cruelty...the rays were no more like pearls ...they were like penetrating bullets. Should I believe anymore in what i was believing???
The story was not over yet...what the world called evening, it was my shattered beliefs...darkness was trying hard to prevail and it succeeded eventually...and then darker and the darkest came and with this, came fear that filled my heart and I analogized the darkness to fear...it seemed that it was not going to be over but then I woke up and saw the pearls again...
The biggest dilemma of my life that what should I believe?? The day...the night...the sheen or the dark....???
I didn't understand the dreams but that didn't keep me from dreaming...I saw what-not with my eyes closed...I was everything that I would have been liked to be in my dreams and I believed in them until eyes were wide open confronting the reality....What should I believe...what I see with open eyes or what i see with them closed??
I believed in beauty and I believed in Love...everytime I saw something beautiful I fell in love...One day I saw a girl...mesmerising pulchritude she had...and the next obvious thing was me falling in love with her...whenever i saw her, i fell for her once again...one day I saw her in an ambulance ...out of curiosity i rushed behind the van and when they were taking her to the emergency ward i got a glimpse of her face and what i saw left me perplexed ...i felt like hating the same girl i used to love and the only reason was that she had lost her beauty due to some acid attack...no more was I a believer of beauty and no more i believed in love...
Life went on...I thought this world to be a lovely place...calm..serene...and i was happy to be a part of this world but no longer could I believe it as I heard a deafening sound and I saw the flesh and blood scattered all over...There were fleshes of my own people...but I couldn't recognize it...and it was a day when my heart bled and washed out all the belief that i had....
Now...I don't believe in days... nights... dreams... beauty... love... serenity... humanity...
I believe neither you nor myself.
I BELIEVE in nothing because I UNDERSTAND everything...
